Life with Me and a cup of Coffee

  Good Morning     I've come to realize that some days I have not a thing in my head to write about. Whether it's for my blog, one of my books, a song or a poem. Sometimes my brain just wants to rest and have to be okay with that. Yesterday was one of those days. I couldn't think of a single thing to put down. I don't allow myself to rest. I'm always doing something or going somewhere. I'm ready to rest. I'm burning myself out trying to keep up with a schedule that no one knows about but me. Which makes me ask the question: Who am I in a race with? The answer is: I don't know. I'm racing some invisible force that tells me i should be in a particular place at a specific time, when, in all actuality, I do not. Why on earth am i stressing myself? The environment around me does that quite enough. So, I've decided to quit. Quit the stress, the headaches and driving myself to the brink of insanity. If you find yourself stress from multit...

  Good Morning     I've been considering what I put in my body as of late. After looking over my diet, I'm horrified. I eat way too many fried foods, soft drinks and snacks (the unhealthy kind). I'm trying to find a way to eat healthier, but still let my family eat what they want. The only problem is, I want what they want too. I'll admit my resolve is weak and I'm working on it. I have been able to get my mom to start drinking ACV with me and more water too. So, it's a shift in the right direction. Now to lessen the number of times we eat fried foods. Mom even bought a new blood pressure monitor and it's keeping me well aware of why it's so important for me to get healthy. High blood pressure runs in my family, and I want to stop the cycle with me. Something I used to take on a regular basis were cranberry pills or the soft chews. I know the juice has too much sugar in it, but sometimes I'd drink that too. Just not as often. I want to get back to th...

  Good Morning     So, I did take a few days off, but only to try and regulate my sleeping pattern. Update on that? I still can't get to bed on time, and I'm exhausted all day. My brother gets off of work late and I can't seem to get to bed before 3am. My insomnia is taking over my life and I hate taking sleeping pills because I'm still drowsy in the morning. I don't want to have to take pills to wake up, pills to go to sleep and then pills for the headache the other pills give me. God, just typing that made me tired. I know I'll have to figure something out. On the upside, I have increased my water intake. Not to where it should be but better than it was. A lot better. Although, I can't drink too much water before bed because I wake up with a water hangover. I literally have a migraine when I get up like I've been drinking the night before. That's never happened to me before. So, I'm learning something new about my body ...

 Good Morning     While doing some  research, I found that a lot of people are saying a lot of different things about weight loss. The one thing that they all have in common: Drink More Water. It was getting to the point where I said to myself 'Okay, okay. I get it. More water.' So, I'm going to try to get out to a nearby park that has a walking trail. I can take my cat for a walk and get myself up and moving more. On a serious note: I don't want to die at an early age. My dad didn't even hit 50 and here I am about to turn 40 in another year. If I only live for 10 more years, what do I have to show for it? I don't have a house, kids, husband or a fruitful business. My life is, for right now, a void. The thing is I am trying. I'm working very hard to get thing up and running and I want to be successful. What is wrong with me? How is it that everyone else can do it and I can't? Am I that flawed? Sometimes I wonder: What am I really meant for? Am I even me...

Good Morning      So yesterday I started on my ACV* with my mom. Of course, I don't expect to see results right away, but I do hope this is a step in the right direction. I did however, slip up and had a burger with bacon. (don't judge...baby steps). I'm a work in progress, but I am trying to drink more water along with the ACV. My sleep schedule is still crap but I've got a lot going on. I have to keep myself busy, or I'll sleep all day and snack all night. I've hit a writers block where one of my books is concerned. It's such a good story, and I love the characters, but I'm finding it hard to seamlessly guide them into the next stage of the plot. I'll get it going again soon. Maybe getting my health together will help with the cobwebs. One can only hope. I guess until next time. Love you loves! Kisses. *Apple Cider Vinegar

 Good Morning     It's not easy starting my day with water. I'm so used to having coffee or tea. I might go back to drinking my detox tea and Apple Cider Vinegar drink in the mornings. I remember when I first started drinking it, it helped my weight so much. I just wasn't consistent with it. I've started using my scheduler to keep me on track. One cup of ACV in the morning followed by two bottles of water. If I could do that on a regular basis I can probably get back on track. Having this much weight on is very painful. I can't run like I used to or even walk as much. I believe that is what makes me depressed. I long for the health I had before. Now that I have a plan in place to get it back, I find myself smiling a little more. That, in and of itself, is a major improvement. Love you loves! Kisses.

  Good Morning      Today is going to be a bit difficult for me. My calves, feet and ankles are swollen. It's to the point where it hurts to walk. I've been working on my diet, now I need to work on the exercise part. I know my weight is a huge part of my health problems as I'm reminded of regularly. I could also be sitting too long, standing too long or eating too many salty foods. I figure if I get in the habit of walking a bit maybe some of my issues will lessen. I'm not a fan of my weight. I'm not very comfortable in my skin, but I can change all of that, and I plan to. I'm taking baby steps. I can only do what I can afford. I can afford to walk, eat less salt, drink more water and try to get better sleep. Those a important keys to a healthier lifestyle. I'm a work in progress...so bear with me. Love you loves! Kisses.

  Good morning. I haven't done a blog in years, but here goes nothing. Sometimes I wonder what do I even put in a blog? So, I figure I'll start with my daily life and let it grow from there. They won't be long post unless I feel like really getting on my soap box about a topic that's really close to my heart. This particular entry is actually late for me. I haven't been to bed yet and have waaaaay too much energy to spare. My cat is curled up next to me and sound asleep. lucky. My insomnia sucks and my anxiety and depression have been at an all-time high. (yay) This is where my social media comes in. I have somewhere to throw that extra stuff built up in my head. Plus, I write books. I just recently finished a children's bedtime story. I look forward to putting that out soon. I'm going to leave this as is and people can take it or leave it. Love you loves! kisses.